Most of this blog is focused on attempting to present evidence that is logical, empirical, historical, and otherwise as verifiable and undeniable as possible. Christianity does not shy away from this, for much of the apostles’ efforts and writings were aimed at correcting error and presenting truth.
I also present to you a bit of internal evidence. I was saved over 28 years ago. Before that I was not much interested in Christianity or spiritual things in general. Since then, the desire to learn of Jesus and know God has only grown stronger. I have as much interest and drive surrounding Christian things as I ever have, and each year the desire to do Christian service work seems to grow stronger.
Every other hobby and interest I’ve ever had has eventually grown tiresome. Things I used to be interested in, I find sitting in the corner gathering dust. I still get interested in a few new things, but after a while I lose interest in those things too.
Yet I cannot explain the inner drive in psychological terms. Something inside of me is driving me, keeping me up nights and taking my days off to learn of God and find ways to communicate Him to others. If I find myself with some extra time, some Christian-related activity appears on the horizon to fill the time. I find myself wishing I could stop all secular activity and do this constantly. The drive inside to know and do Christian things has been in me for all these years, and is stronger than ever. All other hobbies and interests come and go, but almost thirty years of Christian work has me wanting still more.
I have no other way to explain this other than I have been changed from the inside out, and this drive inside me is not a hobby or a fad. I have a spirit inside me that was not there before, and will not go away, thank God.
So this is my personal apologetic. I know it will not do anything to persuade the hardened skeptic, but maybe it was not intended to. In the realm of proofs for God, it is a strong one in my life and my witness to others.